Post of December Past (see what I just did there?!)

If you’ve made it past my lame title for this post, thank you. Currently, I have two blogs. Really, I have more than two, but I want to keep them separate.

Anyway, I’m hoping to the two which fall under the username “Mi Pwin.” That would be this one and Mi Pwint.

(Don’t follow Mi Pwin, by the way! I don’t plan to really post there anymore!)

When I started that one a few years ago, it didn’t really have a specific target, like this one does. When I started this one, my target was very specific: my experiences as a Christian who is a Highly Sensitive Person.

Well…I’m ready to meet in the middle. I want to keep a focus on HSP, but also want to share some other topics: life, spiritual growth, the mess that runs through my head quite regularly.

Without further ado, I’d like to share a post from almost three years ago. This was from December 28, 2011. It’s interesting to read this and see what has changed, and be slightly disappointed over the things that haven’t, but really need to.

I was about to name this post “Slack-tacular,” but I realized that one of my other recent posts was called “Slacker.”  Don’t want to create such a negative trend, when I would like to become a more positive person!

So, Merry Christmas, fellow Pressers!!  I hope you enjoyed a refreshing time of reflecting on Emmanuel, God with us, in recent weeks.

It has been lovely, to have several days off – both before and after Christmas.  I should like to have more such vacations throughout the year.  The Europeans really get it right with their liberal amounts of vacation time.  I’ll bet people are so much more productive in their jobs.  I wouldn’t mind working long hours for a several days, then being off for 3 or 4 days.  With 2 days, you barely get time to catch your breath before it’s time to start getting back to work.  So, this current vacation has been all about catching up on the chores I don’t have time to do when I’m working.  It kind of makes me sad to think that the next time I’ll be able to clean really well again is when I have a vacation.  Or the next time I want to kill a weekend.

(I had no idea that this post would take this direction.)

As I gripe, I think of how the Lord gave us SIX days in which to do all of our work and ONE to rest.  So, technically, we get a good deal by having two, whole days to rest.  Man.  I guess I have to quit complaining now.

Lord, please give me the strength and energy to live the work-rest pattern that you have planned for me.  And the grace for when I mess it up anyway.  

In this New Year, I really want to focus outwardly much more than I usually have in the past.  That will require MUCH more energy than I currently possess on any given day.  Earlier, I’d asked the Lord to help me with my diet and change the types of foods I crave into healthier choices.  I should have post-dated that prayer till 2012.  I mean, come on, people: it’s Christmas!!  It’s cake, egg nog, cake, chocolate, cake, party time.  Did I mention cake?  I know that you can (and should) also make healthy choices when social gatherings abound.  Yeah, right.  Maybe by next Christmas, I’ll be so used to my amazing new healthy way of eating that this won’t even be an issue.

I did eat lots of fruits and veggies at a party today!  Yay! Then drank sweet tea with dinner.  Boo!

This will really be a baby-step type of deal.

For me, this isn’t an issue of losing weight.  It’s an issue of wanting better control of the mess and chemicals that go into my body.  I’m sure that all of those things counteract anything healthy I consume, which makes me sick more often than I’d like to be.  Also, it’s a matter of discipline.  I am somewhat of a slave to my taste buds.  The problem with that is that, well, we should only be slaves to Christ.  Also, if I get it into my mind that I want Wendy’s, pizza or whatever tasty treat, nothing else will do.  Especially not some boring stuff I whipped up at home.  (Not that everything I cook is boring…) And, while I’m pretty happy with my weight right now, I know that my metabolism has slowed down slightly, and will continue to do so as I get older.

So, yeah. This was supposed to have been a reflection on Christmas and an update on my wonderful (not really) adventures of the past couple of weeks.  I also had wanted to share my heart on some stuff.  Instead, you got – this.  That will come soon.

HSP High and Praise Report

I can’t sleep! I am full of energy and wide awake. I’m in bed, but not the slightest bit inclined to fall asleep.

There is a wonderful reason for this, though! This evening, I went to a bible study within a particular immigrant community that I spend time with. There was a guy there, who the last time I saw him was at a community event. He was beyond drunk and was hitting on me. It was creepy, not just annoying.

Tonight, however, he was there as a brand new, baby Christian! I had heard there had been someone to come to faith in Christ recently, but didn’t know who it was. Since I knew the story behind it, I easily put two and two together.

He had such a peaceful countenance tonight. He seemed to be listening attentively. Actually, he used to be in religious service in a different religion. Someone else from that religion, who became a Christian a couple of years ago, brought him tonight; his first time to ever be in a church setting.

Secondly, there was a girl that sat beside me who seemed to have a kind of breakthrough. Not a breakthrough driven by loud, emotional music. But a breakthrough of the mirror of the Word of God held up to her and her seeing her reflection.

The talk was on different types of “Christians,” from nominal to truly born-again. He divided them into four groups. As he described the groups, she said to me, “I think I’m in the wrong group.”

Oh, this blessed me! This was a statement of contrition. I pray that this evening ends up being a turning point for her! Please pray for me to have grace and wisdom to guide her, as the Lord would see fit.

What does that have to do with my sleeping? Well, in true HSP fashion, I’m just totally overwrought right now. I can’t calm myself down and just go to sleep. This happens somewhat regularly, if I’m excited or nervous. The physical response lingers long after the information has been processed.

Why can’t we just put a lid on these responses, once they have served their purpose?!

I have a very long day ahead of me tomorrow. Hopefully, it will be another day of seeing God’s work in people’s hearts and lives. At this rate, I just don’t feel close to falling asleep at all.*

Do any of my fellow HSPs ever experience this?